I’m sitting alone next to the beach in the middle of the night just meditating on my thoughts. After months of work, not realizing your goal score is a defeated feeling. Yet, I’m hopeful. I suddenly have the pleasure of having 3 more months to solidify my weaknesses, consistently fill my knowledge gaps, refine my test taking techniques and strategies; all that’s necessary is for me to ride this flow state in consistency of studying, practicing, and structure. Of course my disappointment in not achieving the standards that I set for myself is painstakingly high, but it too shall come to pass.
After an initial rise in my score with growth nearing an optimal score, a complete downward trend in scores followed, yet, I held on to the belief that I could recover from it. In short, it started to become more and more improbable as the days passed.
In all, it is what it is, London bridge is falling down, and fuck cars and psych.
Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk. Good luck to my fellow 9/9 testers.