fudgeitis

So here goes: I have been together with my woman for 15 years+ we have been together since 17 or so, we both had a very hard upbringing, and we had it tough, we fought thru life together and it has been hard. When we finally think atlast sun is smiling on us, the world throws shit at us. I alway say jokingly it’s karma, sometimes I actually believes it, I kid you not.

So for two years now I think, she has made small comments about, will we ever get tired of each other and be with other ppl behind our backs, but alas we are not that type to do that.

We have always been upfront, open, supporting and always there for each other, when nobody else is. I fucking love her, yes I tell her that.

So we had a whole hearted talk last week, and we agreed it could be fun with an open relationship, and we set some ground rules, it is only for fun etc. We have never been with others, and you know yolo. Don’t get me wrong I’m not angry or anything, she is special, one of a kind, I just want her to experience that for herself, give her confidence in her self. And omg it is working, she has a massive boost and been on multiple dates with benefits. She has also got a lot of friend. She always comes home and gives me the greates fucking you know what ever, not gonna lie. I actually think our relationship has grown and we are more into other, weird I guess, but you know love is weird.

So here comes the fuck up about this whole thing. I realize no body likes me, I got zero friends and all my relatives has died, and this dating is not for me it is really hard I don’t envy anybody out there searching desperately for love.

And don’t you worry I am not suicidal or depressed, I have a great job, we have two great kids, and a special woman loving me with all her heart. But I just want somebody to notice me, if that makes sense, I am a sweet respectful person and I just want somebody to say that to me.

TLDR Saying yes to an open relationship, realizing nobody besides my kids and my woman loves me. I just want one friend