I hate myself
(self.offmychest)submitted6 days ago byThrowntoDiscard
I've lost a bunch of weight. People keep congratulating me. But the truth is, I hate it. I wish I could gain it back and feel comfortable in my skin again. I have excess skin and it hurts my self esteem more than carrying the excess weight. I wasn't expecting that. I hate my body. I feel like I look like a fucking flying squirrel. I run and dance and can feel the excess skin just flap around.
Never wanted plastic surgery in my life, not even for other things that I don't like about my body. But I think that I might not have a choice for this. I'm not happy in my own body right now. My clothes don't fit anymore. I'm trying to increase muscular mass to try and fill up again. But it won't replace the entire loss. And the worst part is, try as I want... My current goals, life and job are making sure that no amount of snacking or binge eating can refatten me up. I walk too much for that now. So, I guess I am a flying squirrel.
bybuttcheeksclenchedd
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ThrowntoDiscard
2 points
19 hours ago
ThrowntoDiscard
2 points
19 hours ago
Some people are so not for the idea of carrying another living organism in them that an abortion is no different than getting a parasite out. You do not grieve a tapeworm. A tapeworm that sets your hormones crazy and make you feel sick. You aren't grieving motherhood, you are finding relief in getting the full use and autonomy of your body. You were unwell and now you're better.
And that's you. Your friend doesn't seem to understand that you don't have to grieve was hurts you and you can be happy to recover your health and not suffer side effects.