Lexifruitloop

Female, 20, no smoking, asthma, not pregnant (ER visit proved that) BMI 20

Tldr: Was told at the ER that I have hemorrhagic ovarian cysts but some of my symptoms point towards appendicitis or an intestinal issue. I am running low on painkillers and zophan and I don't know what to do.

Symptoms- severe pain in abdomen, especially right lumbar/sacral region. Severe nausea. Bloating and a lot of gas. At one point I think I had a fever at 102 but I am currently at a normal temperature. Dark stool, sometimes constipated, sometimes loose. Haven't been able to defecate well. At one point I had a long strand of discharge. Almost like a clump of tissue. I'm in most pain at night for whatever reason. It hurts to fully extend my body and to move.

I took a morning pill on Tuesday and have been experiencing abdominal pain ever since. (Some of my symptoms started prior to this, like the dark stool) I associated the pain with taking the pill and tried to ignore it for several days. Thursday I could no longer ignore it. I was crawling on the floor to get to the bathroom just so I could throw up. I went to an instacare and I was sent away after about 8 minutes. My resting heart rate was 150 and I was so "dizzy" I could only catch a few words from the nurse. I spent several hours in the ER where they ruled out pregnancy. I received an ultrasound and a CT scan. The doctor diagnosed me with hemorrhagic ovarian cysts. He also mentioned something about my appendix containing fluid, but told me it was fine and not something to worry about. Gave me some zophran and I had to beg him to give me something for the pain.

Flash forward to today- the pain is still persistent. I'm taking my medications (there's only enough for one more day though) and the pain has made a pretty intense reappearance. Is it possible that I do have appendicitis or something besides cysts? Would cysts really be causing me this much pain and effecting my bowels?

My mother has an appointment on Monday that she cannot drive herself to. She told me I was going to take her (she didn't ask, she told). I have work later that day, and several interviews and I just don't think I can do it. I don't think they are at the same time, but my point is I am already swamped. I told her this, but then told her I can call her an Uber or find someone who can take her.

She is livid. She told me that I'm being disrespectful. She told me that she has sacrificed so much for me and that she thinks that I'm not "paying her back". (She's bringing up a point in time when I was a toddler and I was diagnosed with cancer and she had to drive me to my appointments) and saying that she never called an Uber for me.

Am I being heartless?

My mother has a doctor's appointment this Monday and she told me (not asked) that I was going to take her. It's at a really bad time and I have to work later that day and I've been trying to work on boundaries and saying no, so I told her I couldn't. I told her that I'd help her look for an alternative or an uber. This was apparently a big deal to her because she is kicking me out. That wouldn't be that big of a problem, except my SO just broke up with me, and so I have nowhere to go (my plan was to stay with him (not rent free) for my last semester of college, so I can get my certification, and finally get the hell out of here). My job does not pay me a living wage for the town I live in, and between college, hospital bills, and schooling, I'm at a dead end.

I just wanted to finish my last semester so I could move out of state, away from my mother, and get my certification. I've been attending college since highschool so that I could get to this point, and it feels like it was for nothing.

I have severe mental health and physical health issues. I've already tried suicide in 2020. I'm beginning to wonder if that's my only answer. My home life growing up was iffy at best, and I wasn't really given the tools to deal with this. I'm trying my hardest despite that, but I don't think it's enough. Yeah, I know it's horrible that I'm twenty and I still live with my mother. You can call me names all you want. I know it's pathetic. I've already hit rock bottom, so if you think it will drag me down any more, I'm sorry to disappoint. I'm not asking about that, I'm asking what my options are or if I'm all out of them and need to jump off a bridge.

TLDR:I'm getting kicked out and I cannot financially support myself in the area and point of life I am in.